Nagayan P.O.V

The first time I saw him, I thought, ‘What the hell is with this guy! My god! I hope I can get along well enough with him…’

Well…I guess I got too worried for nothing. We started spending time together and I realized that there was more than what he showed to him.

Soon, we started spending more and more time together. Whether it was because of the roles we got or due to other reasons, I guess was something I never really figured out. Perhaps, we started hanging out at first because of our roles, but soon, we started enjoying the time we spent together.

When I started to fall for him, I don’t really remember. All I knew was that I fell hard. Whenever I saw him with someone else, I felt this weird, foreign feeling in me. Jealousy? All I knew was that when Yanagi met with the accident and we were all shifted, it felt wrong. It felt horrible.

So I tried my best to not think about it, to distance myself from him. I spent time filming, talking to Kime and others and avoiding Ichitaro and Tuti. Kime, somehow, managed to discover that there was something wrong. Whenever I asked him how he ever did, he always just said,”Duh. I’m your buddy dude.”

Even at times when Tuti seemed like he wanted to talk to me in private and such, I just simply avoided him. The musical already lacked its main character. It doesn’t need to have the rest of it in chaos.

Soon, we shifted back to our original positions. Whenever I saw Tuti however, I’d start remembering how he and Ichitaro interacted. How extremely active and loud and attention seeking he was during that period and I’d start to get jealous. ‘Why isn’t he like this when he’s around me?!’ I’d think. Sometimes I even hate Ichitaro-san. However, he hasn’t even done anything at all to offend me. I feel guilty.

Tuti,

Notice me.

Labels: TxN Fanfic